18 posts tagged “depression”
i have 3 important things to be settled..
the problem is....
they are related to each other which means i can't settle any of them regardless any other two.
okla..actually it's up to me to make the decision.but i am so afraid to.
am so sad...
syikin had just called me to convey the hottest news which is starting from next year, all malaysian students studying around the world HAVE to go back to Malaysia after their graduation...waaaaaaaaaaaaa....i terus menjerit sampai sakit telinga syikin.....hehehehe...sorry la syikin..tak dapat nak kawal perasaan...muehehe....
well....i dun want to go back =P...i need to find a way to stay here....pursuing Master Degree perhaps??eceh~~~kalau lecturer 마이크로파 tuh okey dah lame aku excited nak apply masuk lab 장호준씨 tau...hahaha...perasan hebat nak diterima masuk....have to contact Karen for Korean Language Master Degree by UiTM tu la...
iskisk...tak dapat terima ok...di saat2 syarikat2 korea mula membuka peluang untuk dak2 mesia...di saat itulah kene balik...huwaaaa......
i won't go back until my stay in korea reaches 10 years...hahaha..gilo apo....but seriously....tak puas lagi ok dok sini.....ala...sume orang kan lain2...ade yg suke dok sini..ade yang tak suke....i suke =P
another distraction...tak tenang ok..hehe...cemane niiiiiii....=(
story #1
i cudn't restrain myself from being happy when he said the magical word(yes...u got that right..not WORDS). see, i have to concentrate on my revision but he just took away my concentration..hahahaha...sukeeeeeee......his disappearance did bother me a little bit if not a lot...=P
story #2
a couple had been married for more than 20 years. but sad to say that the marriage didn't turn out right when the husband,whose income is waaaay lower than the wife's, started to 'manage' his wife's money. at first the wife gave him the trust to REALLY manage it but what he did he do??he cheated her...let me give you a good and clear example...
let's say this wife earns RM1400 a month and every month she told the husband to withdraw only RM1000 for their monthly expenses. after a year, hoping that the balance will be like RM4000++, the wife asked the husband to withdraw about RM3000 but the husband said there is no money left in the bank.....what can you learn here?the husband withdrew money more than he should then used the money for his own good kan???not only that..the house that they were living was bought and paid monthly by the wife and their 2 cars also bought by the wife...now tell me...can i swear this living thing called husband?????
it's not over yet...this stupidest-but-brilliant-when-it-comes-to-others'-money husband had made some loan using the wife's name....one of the loan is RM30,000 and the most is RM300,000...yes!!sile terbeliakkan mata anda....RM300,000 is the amount that the wife has to pay because the evil husband used her name...how did he do that???i dun have the answer but as you read above....he is brilliant when he uses other's name for his benefit.....
this couple also had bought a property using both of their names,the wife is the first name and the husband is the second name. they had compromised that the husband will pay the monthly fees of the house because the wife was paying for the house that they were living....the property only costs RM300++ but the house they were living costs RM700++....but what happened???as expected, the husband failed to pay them every month for 2 years and you do the maths on how much that the wife has to pay to keep her property.....tu belum campur duit lawyer and other fees lagi sebab bertangguh...arrggh....*the bad words are like coming out anytime......aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..*
remember that i told before about their cars???after the marriage,the wife bought him a car,knowing that his husband cud not afford it. plus, they got a child...the wife didn't want the husband to bring the child anywhere with the motorcycle when the wife is not around especially when it rains...you want to know what happened to that car???the husband sold it and didn't give even a penny to the wife. when they bought the car, the wife had paid for the down payment for about RM20,000++......aaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!....budus la makhluk tuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
this story happened during the 20 years of their marriage and because of the RM300,000 loan,.now the wife is considering for a divorce because if she doesn't payback the loan which is RM1000 for 300 months(giler kan????kata2 kesat sudah hampir keluar ni...grrrrrrrrr!!!) she will be declared bankrupt. if that so, she can't be promoted and all her things will be taken away....
so,what do you think about the story?? tepuk dada tanya iman...aaaaaanywaaaayyyyy~~~....to all the men in the universe, please don't do these things to your wife...sangat la kejam dan keji OK!!!!!!!!perbuatan2 di atas mampu mengeluarkan kata2 kesat dari mulut saya yang sangat benci berbahasa kesat.....tahan sabar je la nih....astaghfirullah.....
story #3
i dunno whether i shud write this or not...i was actually hesitating to write this..but...hm....i have to since i know i have the ability to forget things in a second..hahaha....somebody is sick..i mean really really sick...but when that somebody called me...that somebody's voice sounded sooooooo normal.....that somebody told me..that my voice is the cure to the sickness....hm....i never knew my voice cud be the cure....no, i am not bragging here...i am just wondering why this kind of thing happens in life....i know the same thing happens to some of you kan???
story #4
saye dah ade shoutbox...yeaaaaa....kalo takmo comment sile la menyebuk2 kat shoutbox eh...hahahaha...apekah...
story #5
hari isnin lepas saye antar report microwave engineering...berdiri je saye di depan pintu...muke 장호준씨 la yang saya mula2 nampak....oh!!sedihnye...tidak boleh berjumpa dah =(......saya tak kira...sem depan saya tetap mau makan lunch dekat 신소재 tuh jugak....syikin pleaseeeee~~~*wink*...hehehe....ala..ke syikin nak makan ngan 신동원???hahahaa....giler la saye ni......
i know i need to send my programming homework...but....my hands are so cold and my head is so heavy....i am so sure that i already had a fever...hm...after a long time...so sorry cikgu....i dun have ANY basic in C++...my head is too in pain to think anymore...GUILTYnye rase...ㅠㅠ
none of my works turned out right...i know i have been doing sins....i got what i 'deserved'....
i am sick but i dunno why i write this blog...maybe because i need to write instead of telling someone that i am sick...
i really want to spend all the time with the angels...but i got too much things to do...nak keluar main2 pun rase bersalah...i miss outing with the angels....i really do....but still i have syikin,wada and sharina around =).....
i've got some 'stories' but i feel NOTHING OFFENDED except confuse on WHAT I SHOULD FEEL? and HOW SHOULD I REACT???me dun understand myself...sangat pelik....instead..others yang risau about me if i hurt.....hehehe....but then again they say LET BYGONES BE BYGONES...so i am leaving the past behind because i dun want them to be my extra baggage in walking towards the future..they are all WATER UNDER THE BRIDGE cewah~~~
eh...saye demam...kene tidur dan bangun awal....subuh dah semakin cepat habisnye but my sleep is never normal...iskisk....workloads...ㅜㅜ
p/s: when a man told you that he will wait for you until you found the right man,don't be a stupid and don't ever believe because he just won't
emosi tak stabil....
bilik dah dilanda taufan Nargis...ntah bila nak kemas ntah...sian sesapa yang masuk bilik saya...mesti mati terkejut..hehe
kerje IP macam ape je.habis la 30%...fail le gamaknye...kalo kene balpyo esok...mati time tu jugak...tapi hati masih risau kene balpyo...walaupun saya tak pernah dengar cikgu cakap ape2 pasal kene balpyo...
esok juga ada exam OS...kene la hafal habis2an...pastuh habis exam lupe...apekah ertinya???
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sepatutnya ada eksperimen hari jumaat.hari jumaat ini cuti...saye dah excited...tetapi apa yang diduga berlaku jua...cewah...yling paste email daripada 조교 berbunyi....
안녕하세요. 마이크로파회로 설계 실험 조교입니다. 내일 Lab #7 에칭 및 제작을 할 예정입니다. 제작이 끝난 후 오후 늦게 측정을 할 계획인데, 1차 측정 데이터를 현재 수신하신 메일 주소로 송부할 것입니다. 그래서 금요일 오후에 정해진 측정 시간에 따로 시간을 내어 학교로 오실 필요는 없을 것 같지만, 측정 데이터가 이상하다던가 직접 확인을 하고 싶으신 분들은 미리 연락을 주신 후 금요일 오후나 다음 주 월요일에 연구실을 방문하셔도 됩니다. 동동주에 파전이 생각나는 밤입니다. 좋은 밤 되세요.
masalah 1:
email2 sentiasa dihantar kepada seorg wakil dalam satu group..malangnya..setiap email group saya sebelum ini dihantar kepada ahli group saya yg seorg lagi...dan dia tak pernah nak forward kepada saya....dia juga telah berjaya membuatkan saya menangis selepas presentation kerana die give up begitu saja 30 minit sebelum presentation....jika result eksperimen yang terakhir ni 조교 hantar kepada dia jugak....saya berasa sungguh benci untuk mintak pada dia....saya nak cakap pada 조교 supaya hantar kepada saya juga tetapi saya takut 조교 syak 'something is wrong somewhere' between saya dan dia...padahal memang betul pun....saya benci nak contact dia....saya jarang sangat2 nak benci orang....tapi saya terpaksa berterus terang...saya memang tak berapa berkenan.dah tawar hati sangat2....saya tahu dia sibuk tak dapat buat kerja rumah,...tapi saya pun sibuk juga....apabila 3 kepala perlu bergabung untuk menjadi 1...group saya pula 1 kepala perlu mewakili 3 kepala...jadi fungsinya hanya 1/3 berbanding group lain...arghhhhh.....tertekan sebenarnya...tak tipu.....
masalah 2:
kenapala asik 조교 nak wat eksperimen sendiri???saya nak jumpe 장호준씨
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harga petrol naik di Malaysia....oh..kesiannya ibu bapa dan kakak saya...masing2 membawa kereta sendiri...tadi saya tanya...dah isi minyak penuh2 belum...mak saya kata abah dan kakak saya dah keluar nak amik minyak..tapi stesen minyak dah sesak..terpaksa la patah balik....bayangkan la...kalau dulu isi minyak RM50 penuh..sekarang kena bayar hampir RM100....kesiannya semua orang....tapi PM kata dia akan bagi wang tunai untuk semua pemilik kenderaan persendirian....saya pun lega sekejap...bile baca berita sampai habis...jumlah yang akan diberi hanyalah RM625 setahun...berbaloikah??sedangkan beribu2 RM sudah pasti akan habis untuk isi minyak sahaja.....adeh...negara pengeluar minyak menjual minyak yang mahal....saya tak tau politik tapi saya harap kerajaan akan ada langkah BIJAK untuk atasi semua ni...
saya perlu belajar sekarang....saya juga perlu tak tidur malam....doakan saya ya semua...thanks!
it was a bad luck that i did to myself. sounds weird? hm...... i shud have prepared everything but i had been so stubborn...padan muke...padan muke....padan muke......
had lunch at 신소재 with syikin and sham...almost every lab members were there but he wasn't...so we had made an assumption that he has class on Monday..hahaha..suke ati...
i need to cry la...a deep one....tell me how.....please....and please tell me how to yell 'kawkaw' at someone you are mad with or at least show that you are mad...
chat with sis and mom last night...mum asked me to call if i have any problem...i refused and i told her that i will break and sob if i call her whenever i have problem then she will never can find out what my problem is..so she asked me to chat with her as she onlines almost every night..ehehe..cyber mom =P
